Tiny Little goals

In order to not feel like I'm being swallowed in some cheap, unrealistic fantasy of being a musician, I set these tiny little goals for myself that keep me focused and help me remember that this is not stupid, and that I shouldn't call Tim Horton's and beg for a job. One of those goals was to find a video of me that I did not make, and didn't have any knowledge of whatsoever. I found one! I have a million of these little things, none of them official, just things that if I found them, or if they happen, then I must be doing ok. And actually, lots of them happen, I think I have mostly "good" days where I think "yah I'm a musician and that's ok" (of course there are days when I pray to the sky that I was good at something else. ANYTHING else, especially something not hard and frustrating like music)
Anyway, I found this little gem of me and the band doing "Fuck you" by Ceelo Green, and it's actually just one of my favorite songs. There's not alot of songs I enjoy singing, it's all just kinda "work" to me now, but this one is fun, and I still listen to it if it pops up on my ipod, cause it's a good fucking song! So we had some fun, and in the video it looks like the crowd was having some fun too!
We're at OTR on jasper ave, and I proceeded to get nice and toasty drunk after the show. I accidentally got asked out on a date!
We were all drinking and having a good time and talking to this nice new guy who was funny and we were going to add each other on facebook. So we do, and then he msgs me that he wants to meet up for coffee, and me being a workaholic (if you consider jager work, which i do!) I'm like, yah, does Wed work? He says "yah, or I could take you to dinner on tuesday" and I run away from the computer, because I probably haven't been asked on a date since Kyle asked me on a date and so dates = living together in my mind, but me and Kyle STILL live together so he's not gonna like that. Not that I want to date this guy, I'm just embarrassed that someone asked me on a date haha
See the trouble you get me into Ceelo Green?
Anyway, check out the video, and show your friends, because the more people that see it, the more people know I fucking rock right?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lrq18b-GGKs


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